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Walking around looking for a way But no one tells me which way to go
I'm caught up in a world elaborath a maze.
Where yes men could easily be known I ask them no questions They give me no answers
Following the wise but they're walking in pampers
Give me a cigarette smoking my cancer
Drink the pain away but I still have no answers.

arg!

arg! IM STARTING TO HATE LIFE ONCE AGAINNNNN!! THEY IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME AND I NEED TO SEE SOMEONE ABOUT IT AND TALK TO GOD. BUT IM TOOO SCAREDDD! LET ME LEAVE BEFORE I PUNCH A WALLL FOR ALLOWING ME TO BLOG WHEN I SHOULD BE SORTING MYSELF OUT.

ATTENTION, ATTENTION, ATTENTION

I'm abit bored at home as well as just thinking if i should go out today as its bloody cold and raining. So i thought to myself " let me blog for a little while then go and get ready". So HERE I AM! So your properly thinking; what is Sally gonna talk about today?? Hmm... I seriously don't know myself. Imma allow my fingers to type as they doing now.

I just want to point out that every girl shouldn't change or worry about another person and love yourself. Cause once you've done that your not your self anymore. You must love yourself for other people to love you as well. Don't make someone your everything cause once they gone you wouldn't have anything left to yourself. I like to think that im good at giving advise if its about love life or just generally things. This weather has just made me go in that mood for blogging.

Everyone thinks I'm mad cause i talk to myself but just because I'm talking to myself, it doesn't mean I'm insane...it just means I'm always able to have an intelligent conversation!!! It's as simple as that really. But if you think I'm mad, you should see my imaginary friends!!

I also have another problem that i don't know where i got it from. I have different moods different days and i swear down on my life i don't mean to have it. One day im all happy and just want to get on with my life as a happy girl but the next day comes and im thinking too much and I'm just mean to people for no reason and i think everyone is against me. I know this is not mood swings because I've been having these ever since. Even my family told me this and say i have problem. Im trying to over come it but It never works. I think the only person i dont get angry at is Latoya and i don't know why. Boyyy!!! isn't crazy but suspects the voices in her head may be someone trying to destroy my life.I knows the voices aren't real, but likes the way they think!But i do not know which is worse,the fact that i am talking to a blog or the fact that the blog is talking back,hmmmm..


isn't crazy. My reality just differs from yours I would give her life just for a shoulder to cry on n hug to make her feel wanted.Nobody understands. But that's the way it always will be . Everyone has a breaking point and I haven't reached mine but soon to come as all this pain in me is killing me. Not telling anyone what i really feel and whats really going up in my mind is burning me. It feels like some day i feel to die but don't remember me for how they died , Remember me for how they lived.Don't get me wrong i dont have this attitude when opens her eyes every morning thinking 'For fucks sake, I'm still alive...Why?'. But when you have nothing to do and your just thinking this comes up every single day.I'm just wondering why whenever she's on cloud nine, some bastard has to come along and shoot her down?!



::Just because her eyes don't tear doesn't mean her heart doesn't cry. And just because she comes off strong, doesn't mean there's nothing wrong::

TRUST!!! BULL SHIT

Okayy... where do i start???? ...TRUST... what the hell is trust!? i have been contemplating on the subject/emotion trust for quite a bit now... an i have come to the conclusion that you cant trust one living human being on this earth except your self HONESTLY TRUST NO ONE.... because one day your going to have to learn the hard way when you open up to people they WILL soon decide to take you for a mug and laugh at you because you were stupid enough to trust them... belive me trust leads to destruction... you think your telling a freind you buisness,even the smallest of your buisness but you end up getting made a fool of ha ha ha and if your lucky enough to find out it HURTS like some one stabbed you in the chest with a dagger or stole your large mc D's(seriously)... annyyyywaayyyy why are mums sooooo irritating for fuck sake!!! this woman has been yelling insults since morning and its only 1:20 thank GOD for earphones thier my saviour i SWEAR all i have to do is put them in and nodd when i stop seeing her lips move ahhhhhhhhh she pisses me off!!!!!..... oh and another little word of advice ACT DUMB you might be thinking by now "ah ah this girl chats so much shit!" but this time its reality if you act dumb people think your dumb so therefore they underestimate your intellegence and it makes things much easier and quicker to comprehend for example you may think i dont see you giving me a filthy look but i do and just because i dont say anything dosent mean i didnt see it or you may thing i didnt hear you call me a blah blah but i did and i know what you think of me so spin on that biyatch ha ha ha ha i swear act DUMB it works.... church is doing alot for me noverdays SWEAR when i go church i feel soo happy i cant wait to go back..... well those are the thoughts of a MAD BLACK FAT UGANDAN GIRL gonna go eat now ha ha ha ha ha

RIGHT... Down to buisness... basicalalalay today was okay i stayed at home because of the wonderful thing called bus strike they should stick up for there rights more often GO BUS DRIVERS WOOOO!!! it was a good time to think about the basics... you know life and stuff... too many rats on my case aggghhhhh why is it that when i dont want to bloody know they come like floods lol floods when i have a good thing going down people wanna spoil it!!! i think its the devil!! comming with stupid things like "your peng" and "were good together" PISS OFF because you aint nothing compared to anyyyywayyy im good right now good life good friends good everyfing.. but one thing i dont understand is why people want to judge me!!! your in a bad situation but you want to judge me because ive got something good in my life AH AH JAST DONT... lool im here blogging as if i dont have coursework to do!!! im not trying to bait situations out here but its great how i thought we would be finished but we have actualy gone closer i mean i HAPPY n even though this person dosent belive me they mean alot.. wow!! blogging is actualy fun!!

Im Back!

I'm backing ladies and gentlemen its been a while don't you think and I'm back. If "someone" didn't remind me that I had a blog i would of forgotten everything like my password or user name like my other website :(. But now im here and expressing myself once again. So were should i start I haven't touched this blogging thing for quite a long time.

Lets start with the negative
How about I want to stab cupid and tell him he really fucked up this time. KMT!!
Everyday trying to be positive and staying happy but SOMEONE has to come in and mess me up with this stupid gossip i keep hearing about him. I DON'T CARE ABOUT HIM ANYMORE AH AH!
The problem these days is people mistake my kindness for ignorance, my compassion for weakness, nor my smile for love.I love a woman with attitude. I am one. I usually say that you can either love me or leave me. But you've gotta ask yourself, does she even give a damn? The answer: FUCK NO!!! But I'm tired of waiting for Karma to do her job so I'm going to help.Don't play games with Bitches who know how to play them better!!

I can't believe i believed everything we had would last but don't worry about me "Cause i realized i got me myself and i,that's all i got in the end. That's what i found out and it ain't no need to cry I took a vow that from now on I'm gonna be my own best friend."The only person you can really rely on is yourself.There are some people in my life that don't deserve to be there.I have learnt that you can't please everyone.... But it is possible to make 'em all mad at the same time! I'm rather experimental at heart. she is currently testing the limitations of how much more she can take! I think i can take alot by the way I'm a very strong girl on how i was brought up not to show emotions and be a solider to not weak. It's really helped me in life when you look at it. Thanks mum!

But I was thinking hard today about something and tried to convince myself the answer but i couldn't so i just wanted to share with you. Why is it we find it so easy to believe the negative things said about us, but think the positive things are all lies?. Hmmm
Anyway I think that's enough for the negative

Now for the positive
This year hasn't been so great for me, always trying to think tooo dam hard and treating people how i wouldn't like to be treated. But guess what; I'M BACK!. No more Sad Sally, no more feeling sorry for myself, no more doubting myself. Wooo! I'm back. Back to look fly (as i am) looking to show bitches that I'm back to get all the attention and my money. Independent bitch up in this bitch.

I look back at some of my past and fink what the fuck was i doing !!! But then again you learn from your mistakes...so fuck It ! ! ! LOVE LIFE <3> somebody comes along and makes you smile!!Well... that person is going to be me. Being sad is sooo long, it just takes out all of your energy and doesn't give you a chance to experience some things. People are soo ungrateful but I can say this right now in front of my fellow blogger that's I'm grateful for what i have and doesn't really care about what she doesn't have. I have a two eyes, two legs, a nose, ears, heart SO IM HAPPY. I just pray to God that my legs still work the next day.Happiness of our lives, depends on the quality of our thoughts.
"You can be a happy person and not have a "perfect" life." You can't have everything because it wouldn't be called "life". God knows what you can handle and what you can't handle so just chill out and smoke some weed dude. It's time to start loving myself and thinking about me more as i haven't done that in a long time.


Please note: I have always been the real me. Don't think I have changed just because I am pissed off. It's still me, just with a bigger attitude.