Time To Think About Things.

They say when you know the person is right for you all you have to do is leave them go and they would come back to you. Well that statement can be true because even through the hard times and fun times for some reason i can't get this person off my back.:) But sometimes it just brings people hopes up to much and you wish you have never heard that "quote" before. It's just how life is you don't get what you REALLY REALLY want even if your praying everynight thinking it would come true. You see everything happens for a reason and God knows what his doing to make people stronger every single day. Maybe you need him, I could be him..I could be an accident but im still trying thats more then i can say for him. Everyone just chatting the most rubbish i have ever heard and i always try to live and breathe and not die again. But maybe hate can be a positive emotion when it forces you to better yourself. No one really knows me, NO ONE!! and i say this from the bottom of my heart NO ONE!!. I dont care about half of the shit that's going around me but WHAT DO YOU TAKE ME FOR, A FOOL?? Or were you just too blind to see that every effort made has failed and they is no destroying me. I've realised that i like to give people some advise but never use it for myself but i can say this everyone is worrying about the wrong things in life ( and people know what im talking about). " no guy is worth your tears and when you find one that is, he wont make you cry". But hey! i dont know how it's feels to cry over some foolish boy and I've been through some insults that people can't even take. You really don't want to hear it before i make some people cry WINK WINK ( Private Joke).Then today happen. Someone asked me if i missed you... i didnt answer, i just closed my eyes and walked away. Then i whispered "so much". Sometimes we tend to be in despire when the person we love leaves us but the truth is not our loss but theirs for they left the only person who wouldnt give up on them. However someday everything will all make perfecr sense, so for now lets laugh at the confusion, smile through the pain and keep reminding that everything happens for a reason. Don't get me wrong every little thing you like about me you should not thank me but the Lord God above that made me into who i am now. But do you ever wish you hear sirens of an ambulance wake up in the E.r and hear the doctor saying that she aint gonna make it just so you can find out who really cares about you. As life goes on and unless you've lived my life, dont judge me because you don't know, never have and never will know every little thing about me. Maybe people might see this and think im chatting the most strawberry but right now i dont really care what any one thinks because its my life that i live and my blog that i created. But the question is today= Whats the sense of wishing for something when I always just wish it away?